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Saturday, April 10, 2004

sleeping with the lights on..

i feel her.. slipping through my fingers.. now she's gone.. i'm sleeping with light on.. =) this is sucha.. imissnicky song. sighs. nuff said bout that. maybe that's why i like this song so much now.. its repeating for the 12th time. =)

on to a not-so-sad-and-irritated mood.. i think a certain someone should try to learn how to relax. it wasn't nice to be jumped at for something.. or whatever.. just like that.. like.. ok.. i shall not make it SO clear.. but.. please be gong si fen ming.. apply it to your emotions?... rahh. i think i'm harsh. oh forget it. i'm just not exactly in THE mood. =)

ahh wells. lets see.. school was pretty draggy on thursday.. i got a shock when ber left class for home at the beginning.. cos like.. its unlike her? well. just have to blame that damn bapok shah. he's getting more and more irritating each day.!!
nods. like totally mans. sighs. oh well.. the rest was okay.. slept my way through chinese.. talked to di like here and there.. lol. thank goodness i have my di around sometimes.. ok.. scratch that.. thank goodness i have my di around! lol. =)) hur.. yupp. started playing with polka cards? malik was like.. showing us card tricks.. that didn't work till the 3rd attempt. LOL. =x hur. yeah.. and den i started my.. uh.. last year oct 16-17 thingy.. = the fortune telling things. sigh. that sucks. it indirectly brought back memories. of that very very horrible day AND night.. yeah. the list goes on. those who went and heard me rattling on bout it will know. =) yeah.. hung out with ber.. chris.. and tiff! haha.. chris sorta drifted away for a while.. so was kinda glad that he decided to hang out with us! smilex. went carrefour for a walk.. and came out with food!.. well.. ber and tiff bought. =x haha. and as usual.. i psyco-ed them to mac.. cos i wanted my ice cream sundae. =P and that guy gave me like.. ALOT of fudge? lol. *shakes head. yay! i didn't have to ask for them. or the fudge will overflow~ =P

hmm.. yeah.. what else.. oh.. hmm.. met leisha.. and went trinity for the... caught [not in the act] thingy.. it was FAB.. like.. F A B . =) beams. it seriously touched me from deep within? *nods. yeah. oh! we sang everything that has breath and here i am to worship. yayness. niceeeee songs! =) smilex. i didn't see janice though. miss her mans. sighs. yeah. hmmm.. there was this... scene. that's so passion of christ. dots. i couldn't help but cry. and some girl i didn't know behind me offered a towel?!. dots. i didn't know i cried THAT bad. =| hee. but it did change my point of view bout something. sacrifice. hmm. maybe it IS worth it afterall. *looks at ally. yeah.. i think it is. do you? =

uh.. friday.. ooo. picnic day! smilex. was supposed to meet angel.. jon.. and sam jnr first.. but i ran along late.. so i met them at marina bay instead.. yupp.. most of them were there when i reached.. and we just sat and waited basically? nods. yeah.. they came.. we set off.. yada.. and we reached! LOL. =\ and soon the singing and DANCING started. lolx. shubee shubee shubee shubee ummm papa! =X haha. i still remember the steps. so cute lahhhh. and we did father abravham too. hahaha. yeah. lolx. the games were about to start.. and angel and i ran away! OH. did i mention i got my EEYORE!? wee. its SO CUTE OKAY. SO CUTE!!!!. =x ok. i gotta learn how to relax. nods. =x hee. yeah. EEYORE! =P bleah. yupp.. went searching for my dearest di.. who was standing very PROMINENTLY on the hill.. lol.. and we were soon joined by gigi and anna! haha.. yeah.. basically just spent the rest of the picnic there.. while more people came and go.. haha.. nods. was fun lah.. =)

oh.. and the youths hung out after that.. lol.. but hmm.. sad thing was.. aaron.. cheryl.. shimin.. and ken.. went marina square!? so it was like.. andrew.. jon.. dom.. me.. kevin.. kc.. eugene.. anna.. yeah. oh. and we didn't have steamboat!. =\ i think steamboats are fun alriightt. i ALWAYS have fun during steamboats! right royales? =)) yeah. neither did we bowl.. haha.. instead.. we walked to some ulu place.. which well.. we didn't end up eating.. at that place.. so.. dom.. kc.. and eugene stayed there.. while we went TOURING marina south in the search for food! we wanted to order dishes? but they didn't have those kinda stalls at ALL. well. except long beach. which we can't afford. =\ lol. yeah.. we ended up having western food.. and yeah. had fun conversations through out! oh. haha. just. so. fun. =)) went pool factor to look for di.. kc.. and gene.. and basically just hung around there? haha.. yeah. mum sent angel and anna to marina bay.. jon and drew to bugis.. and we headed home.. where i spent most of the night crying. alrights. shall not elaborate on that. blahh. its over and done. but the heartache lives on inside. yeaps.

today was just sucha bore. i got a surprise present sent to my house. guess what it is? its the jelly belly dispenser i've always wanted. =)) thanks to whoever it is. no attachment cards/notes or any of that sorts. would that kinda soul please let me know who you are? eeks. sometimes i don't like all these mystery. cos it only reminds me of. bnwr. BLAH. ok. dont. think. hmm.. church tmr. yay. shall go early. double yay. have to improve my mood. BLAH. see my point now? life sucks at this moment. lets hope it gets better. give me a reason. hmm. ok. found it. yay. will be hanging out with di after church tmr. smiles. good. =)

Everything i knew just went out the window
Know i can depend on you - forever
And i never thought i'd see
My life walk away from me
I thought we'd always be - together

Notice you didn't have to pay
For every word i say
And i wish i could change your decision
And you know that i try
And tell you what it's like
But you just wouldn't listen

[Chorus]
Lets go back lets rewind to the days that remind me
of all the good times that we spent together
And i don't know why we just let it all slide
When we both knew inside we were right for each other

I don't know what to do
Cos your everything that i knew

Everythings the same
It's like tomorrow never came
We used to talk about - whatever
And the seasons never change
We never used to act our age, everytime we were - together

Notice you didn't have to pay
For every word i say
And i wish i could change your decision
And you know that i try
And tell you what it's like
But you just wouldn't listen

[Chorus]

I don't know what to do
Cos your everything that i knew

How can you just walk out of my life
Without even giving a reason
And how can you look so good
The day i watched you leaving

[Chorus x2]

hello there angel from my nightmare.

;elysium.
9:12:00 PM